December 30th

We are covered in snow. It had been a mild winter here in NM so far this year and i was sure hoping that would stick around. I hear that it may head back up to 50 next week. I hope so! I have done fairly well with my eating, but I am not getting the exercise in. It is soo cold and wet. I need to pull out my WATP dvd and start walking with it again. I will definitely do that tonight. I have to get 1.37 miles in daily to make my 500 mile challenge for 2011. I know I can do it.

I need to have a before picture and set up my plan tonight also. Hubby is home so I will have him help me (and hopefully get him to join in the challenge!) :)

I just did my weigh in.. I lost 2.5 lbs! That gives me such an incredible incentive to keep moving! :)

The day after, the day after Christmas

I did not do real well over Christmas, but that is to be expected, right? My biggest problem in life is sugar! It always has been and even being a type II diabetic has not straightened me up completely. I hate that sugar/carb craving that just overwhelms me, usually in the evenings. Praying that I can really get a handle on that. My Aunt Ava is a wonderful inspiration. At the age of 79 she now weighs 128 lbs. She is gorgeous! She went off sugar completely and assures me that when I get through that I will stop wanting it at all.. so I hope to get to that place very soon. I will add a before picture soon (though I really don't want to.) LOL But I would like to have it there. My first big goal is 25 lbs by April 95th and I cannot wait to achieve it! I just joined a walking group on momys with 500 miles as my goal for the year. I hope to go farther than that. :)

Starting over

I have deleted all of my previous posts. I want this to be a fresh start in every way. This year has been a very difficult one for me and I am going to use this post to talk about it a little bit. On April 30th I found out I was pregnant, a very welcome surprise! In February of 07 I had lost our last baby at 15 weeks and had been unable to conceive since so I was just thrilled.. and even more so when I realized that my due date was 1/1/11 We had only a few short weeks with our baby, On May 19th he or she left us. My heart was and still is broken, as I face the upcoming due date I have found myself really eating my emotions away again and I do not want to keep doing that.
This may seem silly to some but I had another hard loss on July 3rd when my doggy disappeared. He had been my constant shadow for 5 years and I miss him so much. The most difficult loss of the year came later. On September 28th we were told that my Daddy only had a few short months to live, cancer had invaded his body and we were losing him. We only had 19 days after that visit, not even one of those months..it seems so hard to believe now. I am so thankful that I got to spend that time with him, I am so thankful and feel blessed that we were there the night he passed away and witness the beauty that can be in a Godly mans death. I saw my Daddys eyes light up in a surprised look and I felt the presence of the Lord and of my Grandmother in that room so strongly. I will never forget that look of amazement on his face.. It was a special gift to receieve. Oh how I miss him, but I am so glad he is whole and rejoicing with those loved ones gone before... and I know he is holding my babies for me.

I will ask for your prayers as I begin again. I know that my emotional eating is taking a huge toll on my health and I do not want that! I am setting a first goal for 25lbs lost by my 43rd birthday on April 9th. I think that is doable and is so important for me to reach it.